Reads like a cry for attention when I read it back now really. But honestly this stuff is too much for me. I've decided to runnnn. soz

right..........ermmm I'm sorry to report that all i've achieved from joining this course is that I'm getting off more than usual. This is the first one i've joined and I'm absolutely failing miserably. I've been out tonight with my friends and had a few drinks which adds to my honesty, I'm an honest person any way. I don't want to waste your time I've read the other blogs, seen a friday chat. These ppl are way beyound anything I've done. Excuses, excuses I know but you should cut me from this, I can't give you what you need. I'm too stubborn to accept this side of me and too sub to make the first move as is required in society which leaves me in no mans land.